Lost in Life

I don’t need to see you

to know that you’re around

I don’t need your help

to get up off the ground.

I can stand on my own two feet

and face my problems head on.

I don’t need you to hold my hand 

and tell me what’s right from wrong.

I don’t need you to fight my battles,

in fact I don’t need you at all.

sometimes i wonder why it is the way it is

did i do something wrong, something to offend?

were we ever really friends?

did i waste my time on you?

what in the world did I do?

i always wonder what went wrong

why we couldn’t keep in touch?

and did i care too much?

i wanted to be there for you

i wanted you to know

i told you stuff

no one could even guess

but you just let me go.

 you turned your back

and walked  away

when i needed you most.

i needed someone there for me

someone i could talk to

i needed someone who would listen

and someone who wouldn’t judge

but you were too busy partying,

having fun with your friends

you seemed to think that i’d be fine.

you thought you could be friends with me

 but only during a certain time.

you believed others instead of asking me for the truth.

now i realize you were never my friend

you were the person that used me when you wanted

and left me for yourself.

i know now that you’re not worth the fight

cause all you care about is yourself

you’re self-righteous and uncaring

but that’s ok, go ahead and destroy yourself.

cause i’m moving on.

 i won’t let you ruin me.

i hate the friends i used to have

i hate the friends i still want back.

i don’t like you but you’ve forgotten me,

so now i’m in misery

all by myself, always alone

home at night, no need for a phone

i live my life and i get by

but no one knows why i cry

i go to work, i go to school

i do my best to talk to you

but you ignore me when i try

so maybe i should say goodbye.

i remember the times we used to share

before you decided not to care.

we’d talk about the things we’d do when we grew up

and how we’d be friends till the end

but now it seems you don’t have time

and i’m tired of wasting mine

so remember the fun we shared

and never forget what we were

cause we’ll never be the same,

i’ll never be the same…

but perhaps it’s for the best

i let you in but you would always pretend

i trusted you after everything i’ve been through

and you let me down like the ones before.

i’ll try to forget the fun we had

but i’ll always remember the lesson i learned:

be careful with who you choose for friends.

It’s always the same 

Just round and round again

We never stop, we never sit, it never ends 

We yell and sometimes cry 

But its not worth it to try

I’m here but you’re so far away

I’ve tried before but you won’t stay 

Life keeps going, passing by us 

It won’t stop and it shouldn’t

But we should

We should stop pretending 

and lying to each other

We need to let go 

We need to move on 

So I’m doing the one thing I can

I’m giving up, giving in

Letting go of what has been 

I’ll find someone new

Better than you

i gave you time 

but realize now it doesn’t matter

you’ll always let me down.

whether you’re a friend or family

you should always be there for me 

instead i’m by myself wondering where you’ve been.

you say you’ll call, you say you’ll text 

but its just a lie to make yourself feel better.

you say you’re sorry and it won’t happen again.

you act like it’s my fault, like i’m the one who ended it.

if we were really friends or were ever family

how could you disappear and forget me?

you say you’re so busy, like i have no clue what that’s like

but life is busy and unfair 

and now maybe it’s time for you to realize 

that family and friends should always be there for one another 

and not just when it’s convenient for one of them.

you should be there for the good and bad

when we’re happy or sad. 

whether we’re pissed and upset or just feel like talking.

we should be there for each other not just when you want something.

i’ve tried my best 

and i’ve walked that road

but now it’s time for me to let go.

so move on with your life

like i never existed and please remember 

forget me! 

weddings, dresses, that’s not all

heels and makeup, today’s the ball

hairspray, nails, there’s the call

excitement and joy heard through the halls

walk don’t run, be careful, don’t fall

time to say those special words

start with i and end with do

please don’t stop, don’t be a fool

promise to love me till the end

please don’t say it’s not love,

it’s just the trend.

Restless and tired

feeling out of control

wish i had the right

to choose my role.

so out of place

yet so alike

wish i could relax

for just one night.

too young to drink

too old to whine

wish someone would tell me

“everything will be fine.”

want to stop thinking 

and just let loose.

if i could

i know what i’d choose.

wishes and dreams 

don’t come true

unless you work for them

when you have nothing to lose

stand up if you will

and try to win the fight

don’t give up 

even if it takes all night

You ask me now,

“Do you regret it?”

“Do I regret what? Meeting?

Loving you? Our lust?

Do I regret us?”

These questions aren’t different

We’ve heard them before,

But now it’s something else 

It’s something more.

“Do you regret it?” you ask once again.

“Do i regret what? The time we’ve spent? 

The way we’ve been? Our sins?

Do i regret being together? Our marriage?

Our kids? Our arguments?

Is that what you’re asking as if you don’t know?

My answer is true so I hope you will trust when i say ‘No’, 

I’ve never regretted the things that we’ve done

Family is what matters so i will never give up

Our love is forever so never forget-

I’ll stand by your side and never regret.

roses are red, violets are blue

we say “I love you” 

but do we have any clue?

we hang, we roll, we think we’re cool,

but do we know each other

like we think we do?

we laugh and joke and that’s all fine

but do our hearts match our minds?

we live, we breathe, we go on with our day

but is there another way?

we try but fight, is this right?

should we search for happiness?

or live and add more regrets?

she looks in the mirror and

for the first time in years

she has no fear or insecurity

just content and a sense of peace

because she now knows the truth

that she is not to blame

for what he did to betray her 

from that point on

she won’t need or want his love again

for she knows that it was nothing

but lies he told her to earn her trust

and make her believe that

they were perfect together 

marriage is for life,

till death do you part

so before you say i do

make sure you’ve thought it through

for if you don’t

you could make a huge mistake

and end up spending your life

with someone you hate